My Grandma is in the Hospital

she is doing okay, but she is scared. She suffers from sever anxiety, and she was going in for a routine thing for her kidneys. Her blood pressure dropped, and it turns out she had fluid around her heart. She could have died had she not gone in when she did, and the thing is my Grandma hates hospitals she was refusing to go yesterday. Sigh…

I have my feeling about my Grandma, because of everything she has done. Yesterday when I saw her she looked so scared, and I felt she was sorry for everything bad she had ever done in her life. Everything bad she had ever did to her children. I felt it, I felt her pain…I blamed her for the way my father is, but really he probably could have changed. She played her part, but he is his own man. I wished he had found his way through that darkness she put him through. I forgive her. I just want her to get better. 

You know my mother had a bad feeling about the whole thing she knew some would happen. After my mother told me she was going in for testing. That night I had a dream. I was living at our old apartments with my mother before I ever lived with my other half. She was in her room, and I was in the living room looking her way. It was weird as dreams are most of the time. Everything was as it use to be down to the clothes on the floor in my moms room, the sofas we use to have, and the smell of the house. She answered the phone it was one of my aunts Stella I believe although it switches back and forth between my aunt Olga and Stella. My mom begins to cry saying “I knew we should have taken her in, but she wouldn’t listen.” I some how can hear my aunts on the phone as well then I begin to cry, because I knew she was dead in my dream. I woke up, and knew or felt something was going to go wrong. I feel like I dreamed of the bad outcome, that if she hadn’t gone to the hospital my mom would have gotten that call, because my Grandma would have been dead. She is stubborn but strong.

I am glad she went I just want her to get better.

She not dead they got the fluid out in time, because 

NIGHTNIGHT by DEDDY